There are so many smiles that cross my face on any given day. There's my little smirk if I find something funny but not so funny it deserves a laugh. My fake smile to cover up some of the darkness that tries to seep in my soul. My a little smile without teeth, my smile with a nod, my smile that quickly disappears.
But my one true smile that says a thousand things at once. The smile that always gets compliments, and lights up a room is so rare that sometimes I forget what it even feels like or looks like.The smile that I know appeared on my face the day my son was born and placed in my arms. The smile I reserve for him and his silliness. The smile I know I had for a little while when I was a kid but soon started to disappear with the harsh realities of life handed to me at a very young age.
I miss that smile so much sometimes. It is like loosing your very dearest and oldest friend. It is so much a part of me but yet so far away. I want to find that smile and have glued on to my face everyday, so that everyone knows I am truly happy and love life.
The sad fact is the smile I wear most of the time, even though it is a great smile, is one that helps hide my pain but shares in your joys. The one I share with you to make you reassured you are great, and that I like you. A smile that conveys how your friendship help heals me and how much I adore the time I spend with you.
Please don't be afraid. I know I will find my one great true smile from when I was kid and recapture it just like I did the day my son was born. My journey to this smile is a healing and wonderful one to gain back my best asset.
If you are my friend, I know you will help me find it. The moment you see it, let me know. Jot down what I was doing how my face was lit up from the inside.
